I'm still in my holiday after my midterms, and today my mom wake me up at 5:30 am and ask me to sweep my backyard. I plug on my earphone and I'm listen to the music while sweeping.
"All I've ever wanted was to feel special and to feel chosen"
I don't know why, but this quote is soo meee. Feel Special, how you describe about "Feel Special"?
It is how you treat like a princess with someone you love but just you and only you. It is someone who give you something that just you who have it, call you a cute nickname that just you who called like that by that someone. Feel Chosen is when someone tell you their stories, secrets but just you who know it.
Once, I've ever feel special and chosen until I know that he do that to other girls too. So, now I'm not feeling special and chosen anymore.
Today's weather is the most great weather to just wearing a Bali shirt and short. So damn hot here, I have turn on my AC but it still feels hot gaahhh.
"What can you do when your good isn't good enough?!"
Well, it's explain that what you have done with your best performance, with your best effort and you have do the best but it's still wrong. And you just like wanna scream "WHAT THE FCK SHOULD I DO TO MAKE IT GOOD ENOUGH??!!" I've felt that. When I'm done trying my best to make him happy, proud and everything he ask me to do I always trying to do that. But, I'm still that wrong at his eyes and I don't know why and now.. I don't know what I've to do anymore. I'm tired of being wrong every time. I've fight for him, but all I got is just a tears and I'm just wasting my whole time thinking and crying over him.
I just wanna let out what stuck in my head and it's just like want to expload.